January 2009
Reading Lolita
hmmmm :/
“What is it you wanna do, now that I’m allowed to be alone with you?”
– Birthday Girl - The Roots
“He can’t see the smile I’m faking and my hearts not breaking cause...”
– Taylor Swift, obviously
This is what it feels like to realize that being with the boy you’ve wanted for so long wasn’t what you thought it would be
moody
out of cigarettes, wearing muchos de jewelry to fill the void
“the day I break up with her, I’m going to ask you out”
– a drunk boy, outside in the snow
baby steps...
Now I know, there is no wonder pill.
I had been told this but refused to believe it
Add to my list of Lessons Learned
let me know, let me know
In times like these, I’m glad I still have my old friends to count on
I’ve been burned enough times to know a good person when I see one
I guess that’s something to be thankful for
Flat out broke
Spent the last of my savings on jeans and a book
Tobias Wolff you better earn your money’s worth!
“This kind of love is getting expensive, We know how to live, baby. We’re...”
– Luxurious by Gwen Stefani
Who the fuck you think you fucking with I'm the...
Am considering hustling
Dear Rachel,
Joey: Semi 09?
Me: Prom 2010?
Joey: high school sweethearts 09?
Me: fwb 2010?
Joey: elope 2010?
Me: grad walkers 2010? [as in who you will walk with at graduation]
Joey: scissor 2010?
Me: threesome you'll always regret 2009?
Joey: circle jerk 09?
Me: notch in your bedpost 2011?
Joey: fuzzy handcuffs 2010
Me: experimental phase in college 2012?
Joey: what happens in vegas stays in vegas 2013?
Me: love triangle with joey 09?
Joey: love triangle with grace 09?
fun fact
If someone smacks you hard enough, you will get a headache
Would you rather...
watch TV and discuss the current economy with your father or do homework?
There is no competition. I haven’t brought home books in weeks
“but you’re untouchable burning brighter than the sun, and when...”
– Taylor Swift
“When all you wanted was to be wanted, wish you could go back and tell yourself...”
– Fifteen by Taylor Swift (I can’t help being sixteen and having horrible taste in music)
I think I'm a masochist
I deprive myself of the things I want most
for example, right now I would like nothing more than
a cigarette (teeth stains)
to go out tonight and get drunk (too cold)
do homework (too nerdy)
tell him how I feel (too dramatic)
…but I won’t
My New, Real Resolutions (2009)
Do well in school (where has my focus gone?)
Lie less (ie, not all the time)
Have the perfect, alcohol soaked American Summer
get the courage to take driving lessons
Get a DSLR for my birthday, new prescription glasses
Yearn for material things less
Have a hot bod (fucking do some crunches)/finally take yoga lessons
Do well in APUS/English/all around (emphasis. this is important)
Yale...
